10.2.05
My dad's returning to Malaysia tomorrow or the day after to see my grandfather.He has a fatal illness and you know, may not live for very long. I dont know why but I just dont feel sad. Not that im happy or anything but Im just not sad. Maybe its because he's in Malaysia and I just dont know him well. Or have I become this heartless person who doesn't even feel sad that her grandfather may die anytime? I want to feel more human again.

Just came back from sixuan's house. I learnt how to play pool! But really not good at it.

On saturday there's this huge gathering where all the relatives on my mom's side will get together. And there are like 40 plus people but they're all distant cousins whom I dont talk to and have never talked to. So im really not close to any of them and Im not looking forward to it too. But nevermind there's always a nice tomorrow to look forward to.

Have to go now...bye
Thursday, February 10, 2005

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